Friday, June 30, 2006
its earli in the morning, this is the first time in moi whole life which i auto wake up so earli guess i realli cant gt to slp well ah... life is realli gona be different, two impt tinks in moi life jux walk rite out of moi life n moi heart is realli so empty now. Me n him jux sort of ended yest, nw wif him askin for a few daes brk, haix, bt watever will happen nxt few daes i will not one to expect ah... its bth of our fault it ended this way ah, haix, i seem that i dun bother bout him when we qurral this time but moi heart realli jux sink when he sae he wanna brk and tears jux kp flowin n i cannt seem to stop it. i ask him to leave cox i do nt wan thim to c me cry, to be so weak infront of him but seeing his bckview made moi heart go dwn n dwn into a black black hole... i realli gt e urge to chase aft him hug him cry n ask him not to leave me... bt guess is until this stage will this help??? haix.... moi bow hav to return to lim todae also ah... i will miss it... all the hardship we went thru... now moi life is realli out of direction ah, if i realli cant gt a new bow, him leaving, life will sux in the few mths i hav to pull moiself up... haix...Posted by rence rence at 6:26 AM
Monday, June 26, 2006
Busy busy busy bee...
Long time never blog le ah... been like so damm busy in holiday even more busy then normal school daes ah.It is makin starting to dislike short break, hav to rush thru work, archery training (esp wif so mani wkdae trainin due to comp). End up i hav to changing shift wif moi frenx to go for wkdae trainin, the worst is i actualli skip wrk to go for archery meetin n trainin (no choice is like veri impt ah). FE staff are like all busy bees that why leading to sometimes no pp wrk when we hav some last min stuff cope up, cannt blame us mahx :( so earli plan shedule, so short of staff!! Nw we are realli missin steven ah, y did he steal money, if nt he always will help us replace shift. Nw end up if we cannt wrk last min, we hav to pay 20 bucks each shift. Thats so much ah, guess boss is really angry le ah... I really abit tempeted to quit wrkin ah, i really getting very tired and wif the min 3 wrkin daes is abit much for me. I really gona to brk dwn soon physically ah...
Archery
Its getting from bad to worst ah nparchery... After this batch of RICH newbies came it, i think things is like starting to change. We are having a lack of bow and lim trying to kick the seniors out as the newbies giv him $$$$$$$ (wat i feel ah). I realli feel is unfair ah, i mean the seniors are all shootin fine and he wan us to fight for the bow jux cox we hold on to the bow for veri long le. This is a strange logic lar... He is also starting make all e commettie go crazy ah, tat dae was the first dae i saw heng wei so angry! imagine from a siao siao heng wei to tat form, its so scary ah. The newbies also ah, nobody actualli help him to bring the board in the clubhse when they are ask to, end up is the senior guys doin the job.
When heng wei is in normal (crazy) mode... tkin pic of himself
Sooner or lata i tink is either we go or lim go ah. Actually i think i am quite lucky ah, i mean if i join a few mths lata, i be in the junior team, i glad i in the senior team. Like all the people inside, havin the complicated archery family, they make my training times enjoyable!! thx guys!! hehex. Last sat guan limb crack out of the sudden when he pull his bow and he was kanna schold by mr lim cox of this ah. It is honestly nt his fault ah, he nv dry release, nv do anithink funni and yet lim wan him to pay at least half for the limb. Hope guan will not leave the club ah, he still hav to train me and entertain me ah, hehex ^^
Cute rite!!!! its chip!! moi dear brought for me to 'hong' me, hehe
Me wif chip... *huggies*
Dear and me wif chip!! hehex
Ya, that dae moi dear brought me to this place at wisma which sell realli nice 'xiao long bao' ah!! i really luv them ah... so so so nice, guess is in moi gene that i luv them bahx. there one at paragon also ah, forgt the name of the shop le, bt i recomment u all go try. The price range is nt very ex also ah, i intending to bring my aunt and mummy to eat during aug (our birthdae mth ah)
Yum Yum!!! three kanna eaten up... ^^
What we ordered!! hehex, oni cost 60 bucks... hehex
Sadx ah, todae receive moi em3b test paper ah... oni gt 60 marks ah!!! ah!!!!!! i lose 12 marks due to carelessness ah... haix... nvm ah, lets c moi other paper bahx... hehex... tk care ^^
Posted by rence rence at 9:19 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Been so so busy this few days ah, i just came back frm my archery competition, quite disappointing this round for NP archery ah... we din manage to win anything this time round ah, everybody din hav good form, guess it was due to not training at the exam week ah... Even for our team event, both NP2 and NPA did not do well also ah, haix... nvm ah, there is a competition at NJC in one month time, we will win bck all we can tat time!!! hav to train hard, veri hard this one mth ah!!Had to take the pictures from competition from ben before i can update on ah... its like so empty ah moi blog... tk care guys!! ^^
Posted by rence rence at 4:26 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Emtionally drop from archery
This is a very long entry about my feeling, sorry if it is too long winded. Thx and sorry guys!!
End up, lim saw that i was cryin, din wan him to c as din wan him to ask. But when he came and ask me wat happen, i break off to my limit and said out the reason. Haix, din wan for everyone to know as i din wan to make friendship between the girls to become bad. Lim told me he is the coach, he is the only one to choose who is in the team. He did not even scold me, no one should scold me and i should not cry as i am already tryin moi best.
I guess i jux gave myself too much pressure once again ah... At least in studies when i give myself more pressure than will i tend myself to study more, even when i break down i'm alone and i pick up easily wif the cheerful me ah. But for archery it just seem so different ah... It all started yesterday when moi form suddenly drop very badly ah, i was realli very disappointed wif moiself ah!! 115 pts eh!!!! wat is this? can go bang wall ah!!!
I was suppose to go work today but i was too emotionally and physically weak ah, so did not go for work as i was worry i will break off totally on sat competition. During nite trainin i was physically well already althought still have muscle ache and my blue black ah. I thought my emtionally was well too just like normally when i break down just after a nite of slp will be fine, bt i was wrong!! totally wrong!!! When i overhear hui zhen tellin rasmi tat she will not win team event and can only win on indvidual, alot of thoughts start to run thru my head. I did feel extra hurt as hz is like moi 'sugar daugter', so i did not xpect her to say that ah. Than when i heard hz saying to the 'aunties' about it again, my emtionally totally crash ah but i still did not tear as i thought i will be ablt to shoot well or at least my normal standard.
Haix, bt i failed myself, as i was over cautions of result, i aim too long, pluck and there goes my result. One end, Two end... ... till the six end i was ultimate totally disappointed in myself and tears start to roll down. The another reason was WE ARE A TEAM, NP2!! But what is happenin? where is the team work? nth ah, nth is there ah!!! I mean, ya, this competition is the first for bl and me but we are already training very hard ah!! We may not have the result you all have but as least we have the attidude. (sound abit like wat xia ren feng has said)
When i manage to dry my tears n stopped it, i began to shoot. Was still not shooting very good but i manage to like know where is my fault ah, i always pluck. I realise my follow thru is wrong, i shld jux relax my finger and hav a strong follow thru. Two days training more to correct my form, jia you ah girl!!! Thx gz and yew teck for the guidance. After that we had sudden death team event, i score a 7 in the first rd and we draw wif gz team. Second time, i pluck, a 3 and we lost by 1 pt to them, guess i really nd to wrk under stress for archey ah... haix
After training, girls team were called to stayed back as lim wanted to talk to us. I knew something was wrong, i knew he was goning to scold us as just nw yew teck came to ask me what did hz said. I felt very bad that i pulled the girls in as hz did not like pin point us ah, i was juz abit over sensitive ah, since jux nw she, rasmi and emy did come and talk to me.
Expected, lim came out and scolded the senior girls (what i still rem): saying that the senior girls result are very inconsitant and during the NTU shoot they did not win. The rule are changed from a team of 4 to a team of 3 that why someone will have to leave the team. You all want to win and think that wif bl n flo you all wun win bt are you all able to have a sure win in competition. bl n flo are the two new girls that keep coming for training and have good attidude. The guys team never give me this kind of problem, if this type of things still happen i can do not sent in any girls team. End up, he asked the seniors girls to chose who want to leave the team and NP2 is finalised with emy, bl n me.
I also remember yt saying something about in a team is all about teamwork, it is not so about wining. I mean it is hard not to be sad to win, bt end up when you know the rest of the team member is there for u, you will not be so disappointed for not wining. Jux like the band spirit i felt in my secondart life. Even when we got a bronze for my last syf, i cried, but i was happy in the end as i know the team spirit is there which hold the band together.
Actually i do feel bad ah, i jux wanna say sorry to the girls team if you all manage to c this. I guess i was over sensitive, but lets hope wif this, we have the team spirit. Like wat rasmi said, its near to competition and everyone is stress, so sorry for all the trouble ah... I do feel much better now but since this is the first time i really had a thru breakdwn, i need a few days to recover and not think so much ah. I need a clear mind to shoot!!! Its not a rite choice to go training tmlo althought i nd more training, shld have a rest and train on thurs n fri. I wanna shoot for team event, i do not wanna disappoint myself, my friends and my team! GO NP ARCHERS!!! GO NP2!!
What a long entry ah, seem that a blog is not bad since i prefer to type instead of writing ah. Recover, recover, recover!!! time to sleep ah, tmlo have to wrk and maybe mit gerri for dinner lata ah. moi boi is so stuck to the tv for world cup ah until he seem to me not so interested to tok to me, diaox! Even like when he neo i brk dwn, also like tat... haha, maybe i tink too much... nitey nite then!!!
Posted by rence rence at 12:47 AM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Wat is this???
Sometimes i just wonder why some people are jux so not considerate ah... First was when i when to watch MI3, there was this lady behind us wif her child. In the beginning everyone was concentrating on the movie and suddenly a handphone ringtone went off... Omg!! n the ringtone is so so so auntie lar :P... I mean this is common so i can still bear wif it, then the auntie behind me start talkin on her hp like she do not know she in a cinema ah, diaox, be considerate ah mdm...
Then when we were concentating on the movie again, our chair starter shaking... First time, maybe the child is changing sitting position... Second time, maybe the child kick it accidentally... Third time, what is the mummy doing? okie, maybe she never see... Forth time, nvm, the person its a child... Fifth time, AH!!!! am going crazy!... Finally it stopped... I mean if it is those cartoon movie, i will understand as i should be prepare already. But is its xmen3 eh, if the mummy know the child will not be able to sit thru the movie, then dun bring him there? End up, i think i miss like a small part of the movie because of this incident ah, sadx...
Shall continuce at another time bahx... today had a very bad trainin ah, had a blue-black on my hand, bt had some lame stuff from heng wei ah, hehex. Shall update about it when i upload my photos in the computer. Having training tomorrow at nite indoor at clementi ite ah, haix and still having work in the morning, dieing ah, help me!!!
Posted by rence rence at 11:22 PM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Its a start
hi guys!!! some people sould be suprise for me to start up a blog when i did say comment something not very good about it. But lets forget about it, since i'm bored and blogging looks fun as i can able to design it and also able to place picture in my entries. I lurve tat!!! That is becasue i'm a picture person ah, hehex. Take tons and tons of pictures everywhere i go with my camera phone!Just finish my common test today so be able to play with my blog during my two weeks break, hehex. Had three easy paper and one difficult paper, hope for that at least a 60 marks, plz plz no fail. Working hard towards my 3.8 semster gpa ah, bt sadly had a few careless mistake in e papers, if not will be able to score better. Never mind ah, at least this time i tried my very best for this time le.
Hee... todae watched movie wif moi boi, Xmen3, did not know whether had i watch the part one or two before, just remember i watched one. Was nice ah, much nicer than i had expected. I cried as expected, haha, if i never that means the movie is not even touchy, lol, too much tears in my body. Ya, if u all haven watch the movie and want to watch, remember to wait as there is still a really small part behind after the whole name thing. (watever is tat called?) Sorry dear, know i was in the wrong today, will not do it again. Thank you for not being angry ah, hehex, u r e best ^^ Ya, thx zakir for the pizza hut treat ah, its was very nice!!
Today is the starting of world cup, everyone is so excited!! Haha, it is because they are in luv with soccer or cause they are betting on it? Its like almost all my friend is like watching because they are betting on it, for me also, if i place a bet on that match than will i made more effort in watching thru the match, althought i enjoy watching soccer ah. Good luck to all who bet on today on going match now! I think all mostly on germany ah, home ground wor!! But odds are like so low but high chances so no choice. hehex ^^
Tmlo gonna have training again after so long so have to go sleep early le... nitey nite!!!